Friday, January 23, 2009

It is the time to let go

1/23/09
There is going to have a big party at the medical center here on Sunday, the scholars, students, and people from China Consulate all will be here. I am excited, and looking forward to the New Year.

Being through different phases- sadness, furious, felt unjustified, then self-isolated, holding my head up, but was so fragile and vulnerable inside, I am now to the phase for forgiveness-to forgive him and ask for his. It is time to let go of my anger and bitterness. The years drifted us apart, but we did not learn to adjust. Loss of trust, and piling up resentment, the love was long gone. There was a lot fights and humiliation in the end, all of us suffered, including our daughter. His last conduct was the consequence not the cause of this failed marriage.

Lu, my dear friend, told me last year that my heart would bloom again in the spring-I did not believe it. Time really can heal!!! It is not spring yet, but Houston does not have winter really. It is the New Year, the new era, and the possibilities. My heart is filled with hope and joy.

Wish the New Year (the year of ox) bring propriety and happiness to all of us.

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